Your red dress,’ she said, and laughed. But I looked at the dress on the floor and it was as if the fire had spread across the room. It was beautiful and it reminded me of something I must do. I will remember I thought. I will remember quite soon now.

...morbidly, attracted him to strangeness, to recklessnesss, even unhappiness.

Soon he'll come in again and kiss me, but differently. He'll be different and so I'll be different. It'll be different. I thought, 'It'll be different, different. It must be different.

The rumble of the life outside was like the sound of the sea which was rising gradually around her.

Even the one moment that you thought was your eternity fades out and is forgotten and dies.

Your red dress,’ she said, and laughed. But I looked at the dress on the floor and it was as if the fire had spread across the room. It was beautiful and it reminded me of something I must do. I will remember I thought. I will remember quite soon now.

She had left me thirsty and all my life would be thirst and longing for what I had lost before I found it.