She needed food. Diets didn't count in a crisis.

Moments. All gathering towards this one.

Cal says that humans are made from the nuclear ash of dead stars. He says that when I die, I'll return to dust, glitter,rain. If thats true, I want to be buried right here under this tree. Its roots will reach into the soft mess of my body and suck me dry. I'll be re-formed as apple blossom. I'll drift down in the spring like confetti and cling to my family's shoes. They'll carry me in their pockets to help them sleep. What dreams will they have then?

I didn't understand that when you make love, you actually do MAKE love. Stir things. Affect each other. The breath that escapes from me is dazzled. He breathes it in with a gasp.

The light is heart-breaking.

Every breath, every heartbeat, was one less until maybe things stopped hurting this much.

Like a tree losing its leaves. I forget even the thing I was thinking.