There hadnโt been one specific moment. It was like gradualy waking up. You go from being asleep to the space between dreaming and awake and then into consciousness. Itโs a slow process, but when youโre awake, thereโs no mistaking it. There was no mistaking that it had been love.
Jenny HanI didn't want to make the same mistake my parents made. I didn't want my love to fade away one day like an old scar. I wanted it to burn forever.
Jenny HanAn eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. a burn for a burn. a life for a life. that's how all this got started. and that's how it's going to end.
Jenny HanHere's something else, something important: Love is not transactional. It is not a bank account, you don't always get what you put in. Sometimes you put in so much and get very little return on your investment, at least that you can see right away.
Jenny HanEverything good, everything magical happens between the months of June and August. Winters are simply a time to count the weeks until the next summer
Jenny HanThat's when I finally got it. I finally understood. It wasn't the thought that counted. It was the actual execution that mattered, the showing up for somebody. The intent behind it wasn't enough. Not for me. Not anymore. It wasn't enough to know that deep down, he loved me. You had to actually say it to somebody, show them you cared. And he just didn't. Not enough.
Jenny Han