One can't say how one behaved or why, really. Such situations, they are far more complex than any either/or proposition. It is simplistic to produce events in pairs and lean them against each other like cards. I suppose if you a playing go or shogi, then such a thing might be helpful, but that is not life.
Jesse BallIf Americans are to read something that is difficult, they will only do so supposing they will be admired for having done it.
Jesse BallI'm an elephant today. I will need to have lots of room and also a bowl of water on the floor.
Jesse Ball