What you had could never make up for what you'd lost.
An item that looks perfectly normal on the surface might only be disguised.
Just because it's fiction doesn't mean it's any less true.
When you want something bad, you'll tell yourself a thousand lies.
We all want to know what went wrong, even when there isn't really an answer to that question.
I don't know whether you can look at your past and find, woven like the hidden symbols on a treasure map, the path that will point to your final destination.