Sin will do a number on you.
If you be faithful as an influencer, God will allow those you mentored you to become your mentees.
You can't receive forgiveness unless you let God deal with your deceit.
I don't know of a way to have a generous church without a generous pastor.
You can minimize your sin. Rationalize your sin. Justify your sin.
If you know what you got and like it, be reluctant to leave it.