God gives enabling grace to go on.
You don't ever have to teach a kid to do wrong. You have to teach them to do right.
It's very different to live with a mask.
Anytime you commit sin and God deals with you, you have the opportunity to confess it. If you don't confess it, you only have one option but to cover it up.
Will you ask God to bring you to the place where you're willing to be willing?
If God did not care for you, there would never be a sense of a need to respond.