I am part of a vast generation of people who perpetually live as if they just graduated from college.
For me, the past is dead. Can't go back.
The real self and the public self are intertwined, like a tumor around an organ, and you can't cut the tumor or you'll kill the organ, so they live together, until the tumor chokes the organ off - but which self is the tumor?. Or it's like something out of Star Trek. The Borg.
I am always the source of the worst rumors about myself.
I promote my own self-hatred.
Unfortunately, I'm one of those idiots who knows everything about health and is in a constant state of alarm, and yet I continue to do everything I shouldn't do.