Murdering someone would surely prove that you are capable of killing, but it wouldn't be the most reasonable way to understand why you shouldn't do it.

There's nothing wrong with not understanding yourself.

I wanted to cry but I didn't, I probably should have cried, I should have drowned us there in the room ending our suffering.

Be the instrument playing the sound of your life's passing

While it is always possible to wake a person who's sleeping, no amount of noise will wake a person who is pretending to be asleep.

I felt suddenly shy. I was not used to shy. I was used to shame. Shyness is when you turn your head away from something you want. Shame is when you turn your head away from something you do not want.

I could tell that Mom was dreaming, but I didn't want to know what she was dreaming about, because I had enough of my own nightmares, and if she had been dreaming something happy, I would have been angry at her for dreaming something happy.