Iโm not going to let go of you. Iโm going to hold you all night. So go ahead and feel whatever you feel. If youโre still craving cocaine, go ahead. Youโre safe. You can crave it all you want, but I wonโt let go, and if you still feel like you canโt trust yourself in the morning, and itโs what you want, Iโll drive you to rehab myself. Okay?" ~ Max
Josh LanyonWhen you live with a potentially life-threatening condition you get used to the thought of dying. You accept it, you push on. The thing that scared me was the picture of dying slowly and painfully, the loss of independence and identity to illness.
Josh LanyonKevin refilled my plastic cup with more box wine. I smiled thanks. Kevin smiled welcome. Jake kicked my ankle.
Josh LanyonI thought I recognized you." Really? He remembered me looking like Swamp Thing? How flattering.
Josh LanyonI love you," Jake whispered. "Are you strong enough for this?" I made myself comfortable. Said over my shoulder, "Sure." "Would you tell me if you weren't?" I grinned. "Maybe. I can't think of a nicer way to commit suicide." "That's good. I can't think of a more pleasant way to commit murder.
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