What we really want to do is what we are really meant to do.
Try approving of yourself just as you are, and spoiling yourself rotten with small kid's pleasures.
Workaholism is an addiction, and like all addictions, it blocks creative energy.
Creativity flourishes when we have a sense of safety and self-acceptance.
But do you know how old I will be by the time I learn to really play the piano / act / paint / write a decent play?" Yes . . . the same age you will be if you don't.
when I talk about a writing life, I'm talking about a life in which writing is the dominant response to living.