I keep seeing myself in my daughter, and I see my mother in me and in her. Bloody hell.

I felt my mother about the place. I don't think she haunts me, but I wouldn't put it past her.

I didn't come into the business to get awards or titles.

Suddenly, you are very much in the present, and you learn it's really the place where you should always live.

I'm more selective now I've got a family. I don't want to work all the time. My daughter's 12; I don't want to miss out on her life. Soon she'll be a teenager; she won't want me around.

Being a mother adds another emotional dimension, a feel for children that I didn't have before I had one. They were a pain before.

Sixty felt like a big landmark. Not in a dreadful sense, but none of the other birthdays have bothered me. It's got labels on it - OAP, retirement - and I just wanted to take stock. I wanted to be in my greenhouse at home and at least give myself the opportunity of not working again.