Yes, my mother's death is a terrible sorrow to me. I feel - do you know what I mean - the silence of it so. She was more alive than anyone I have ever known.
Katherine MansfieldWhat is it with me? Am I absolutely nobody, but merely inordinately vain? I do not knowโฆ. But I am most fearfully unhappy. That is all. I am so unhappy that I wish I was deadโyet I should be mad to die when I have not yet lived at all.
Katherine MansfieldI think of you often. Especially in the evenings, when I am on the balcony and itโs too dark to write or to do anything but wait for the stars. A time I love. One feels half disembodied, sitting like a shadow at the door of oneโs being while the dark tide rises. Then comes the moon, marvellously serene, and small stars, very merry for some reason of their own. It is so easy to forget, in a worldly life, to attend to these miracles.
Katherine Mansfield