I find waiting unbearable because it makes me passive and negates me. I hate being nothing.

Well, fear and homophobia are both pervasive.

Yeah, I mean, I put work out there for people to use and I'm grateful when you use it.

I understand that when people read my books that there's something there - but I don't identify with it.

And I'm working at trying to find a kind of language where I won't be so easily modulated by expectation.

I find waiting unbearable because it makes me passive and negates me. I hate being nothing.

But : We're still human. Human because we keep on battling against all these horrors, the horrors caused and not caused by us. We battle not in order to stay alive, that would be too materalistic, for we are body and spirit, but in order to love each other.