All I know is that I've wasted all these years looking for something, a sort of trophy I'd get only if I really, really did enough to deserve it. But I don't want it anymore, I want something else now, something warm and sheltering, something I can turn to, regardless of what I do, regardless of who I become. Something that will just be there, always, like tomorrow's sky. That's what I want now, and I think it's what you should want too. But it will be too late soon. We'll become too set to change. If we don't take our chance now, another may never come for either of us.

You need to remember that. If you’re to have decent lives, you have to know who you are and what lies ahead of you, every one of you.

Now naturally, like many of us, I have a reluctance to change too much of the old ways.

So why not become a mongrel? It's healthy

Now when I look back to the Guildford of that time it seems far more exotic to me than Nagasaki.

She might be a great person, but life's so much bigger than just loving someone.

But then, I suppose, when with the benefit of hindsight one begins to search one's past for such 'turning points', one is apt to start seeing them everywhere.