I find filmmaking to be a super lonely, alienating experience.
I don't dislike everything I do. Especially with a film, you don't have an easy relationship with it when it's done because it's been your life.
In my mid-age I do feel more at peace - not with the world, but with myself.
I don't have to be making something to feel like life has value.
I'm drawn to people that have tasks to do.
I like to have a project. I live to have something to waste my energy on, something to think about. To figure out like a puzzle.