These were the moments when I was disappointed and frustrated, when I got so low because it seemed all my hard work had been wasted. But the moments passed, and the motivation to go back to rehab was there again.

But I have been hitting for a week now and trying to get back into some sort of routine because I need to play well at tournaments.

Well, there's no monkey on my back.

I am happy to have played a match and break the rhythm of daily training.

When I marry my name will not change.

I have a daughter and a family.

Athletes have a certain stubbornness that carries us through and makes us do things that people say we can't do.