The record company really pissed me off when they told me to lose weight. I couldn't be bothered with looking a certain way. So I left the business. I don't regret it.

I do know what my family has done for me, but they do need to give me some space to let me be myself. There would be some things I would handle differently.

Performing, I can take it or leave it. Horticulture is far more challenging. I'm absolutely fascinated by it.

My tears of love are a waste of time if I turn away

I don't take myself seriously any more. Sometimes I just garden in my knickers and platform shoes.

Sex does not exist for me at all. I haven't had a boyfriend for a long time. There were only three or four in my life up until now anyway.

You're full of insecurities in your 20s - most of the time your heart's being broken, you're having a difficult time finding out who the hell you are, and I was trying to do that in the full glare of the public.