Michael and I talk at least every two weeks. He understands why I've done the things I have.

I'll never stop dreaming that one day we can be a real family, together, all of us laughing and talking, loving and understanding, not looking at the past but only to the future.

I've always wanted to adopt kids ever since I was 16 years old. I always said I'm going to adopt, I'm going to adopt. There's too many kids in the world that need love and attention, I can give it to them.

It's good to do things that are out of the norm.

I think the deepest problem is between my parents and me. I just don't know if it will ever be the same.

That's one of the things that I say to myself as far as a ritual that I have every day: "What can I do today to make it better than it was yesterday?"

J has told me about his past. I know what happened and why. But he is the one person who made me believe in my talent and whatever happened in the past, he's been a wonderful manager to me.