For the first time in a long time, I actually look at her. I've always thought Lena was pretty, but now it occurs to me that at some point - last summer? last year? - she became beautiful.

You have to go forward: It's the only way. You have to go forward no matter what happens. This is the universal law.

Be honest: Are you surprised that I didn't realize sooner? Are you surprised that it took me so long to even /think/ the word -- death? Dying? Dead? Do you think I was being stupid? Naive? Try not to judge. Remember that we're the same, you and me. I thought I would live forever too.

Feelings aren't forever. Time waits for no one, but progress waits for man to enact it.

At the same time I know that it’s not really their fault, at least not completely. I did my part too. I did it on a hundred different days and in a thousand different ways, and I know it. But this makes the anger worse, not better.

For a moment, my heart aches for him. I should never have asked him to join me here; I should never have asked him to cross.

Grief is like sinking, like being buried.