As someone who played music and never got famous, and remembers little fragments of that, I don't remember life as a dramatic flamboyant thing.
Leni ZumasIt just fascinates me, those private mechanisms that we use to make sense of the world - whether they have to do with the five senses or not. I think literature is one of the only kinds of art that truly lets us into that.
Leni ZumasI started reading contemporary fiction in college or right after college. It wasn't as if I was steeped in experimental minimalism when I was twelve or something. I was reading The Witch of Blackbird Pond.
Leni ZumasIn my short stories there's a lot of focus on people successfully and not successfully responding to some sorts of discomforts or instabilities.
Leni ZumasI find myself writing protagonists who do feel pretty cut off from others but who want to make connections and aren't very good at it.
Leni ZumasWhether consciously or unconsciously, I felt myself drawn to writing a female character who was pretty flawed and not very virtuous or wonderful or attractive in these ways that throughout literary history we've come to expect female characters to be.
Leni ZumasIn undergraduate classes, I often see writers who are still simply imitating. I mean, we all imitate - that's how we learn to speak or write in the first place - but they're writing a Dean Koontz novel or something.
Leni ZumasGiving the reader the space to move around and be active, and encourage their active response is important to me. That will connect the reader more to the text.
Leni ZumasI cut hundreds of pages from my book because I felt myself being reiterative or redundant. Sometimes I wanted to leave just hints of things.
Leni ZumasI am fascinated by tiny, incremental changes, almost imperceptible shifts in how people orient themselves in the world, because those are in some ways the most hopeful.
Leni ZumasI felt sure about wanting to look at a person's life that had been limited or damaged, but not necessarily ennobled, by loss.
Leni ZumasThere's always something else to work on and different solutions to these problems in the next thing. We each have a certain set of obsessions which we each cycle through.
Leni ZumasI have what I came to find in my research is a mild form of synesthesia, though I never would have labeled it as such. It's how I think about numbers and letters. They all have inherent genders.
Leni ZumasWhen I watch students make particular decisions about language, structure, and form, it sharpens my own thinking and my own development as a writer.
Leni ZumasEven while I was working on the novel I would also write short stories as relief, just to be in a wieldier world that could negotiated more easily and more quickly. In the novel, I even changed the narrator from a man to a woman.
Leni ZumasFor me, the genders are an essential element of numbers and letters, not something that could be removed from them.
Leni ZumasSo often we think of a wound or a loss as making a person feel more deeply, become a better person. But I don't think that always happens. I think it can constrict people's lives, especially if they don't push beyond it.
Leni ZumasPart of being a writer is feeling that constant dissatisfaction, thinking about what else you could do, and also knowing when it's time to leave a project.
Leni ZumasIn general, teaching writing makes me a far better reader because there's so many ways to write a good sentence or a good story, and as a teacher I'm obliged to consider them all, rather than staying in the safety of my own tendencies.
Leni ZumasAnother obligation that I have as a teacher is to make available to students a range of options and devices and approaches, rather than saying "well here's one way to do it and that's the only way that's good."
Leni ZumasSometimes you just feel like you could work forever on something and never know when it's done.
Leni ZumasI'm always interested in encountering people who are synesthetic and seeing how they experience things.
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