Do something about your life now.
Forgive yourself for your faults and your mistakes and move on.
What we do and accomplish is only the tip of the iceberg of what's possible for us.
Things are not going to improve for you in life until YOU improve
If you want to be rich watch what rich people do everyday and do it. And watch what poor people do and don't do it.
Whatever you accomplish in life is a manifestation not as much of what you do, as of what you believe you deserve.