I was certainly open for something being on the edge of a nervous breakdown, perplexed by my own sexuality. I was gay.
I recovered my infant Judaism, but in a reformist version.
In speaking of Jesus, I must speak about Christianity because I do not think it possible or profitable to divide the two.
I was not comfortable worshipping another Jew.
I still go to a Christian priory for retreats.
To my surprise, my 70s are nicer than my 60s and my 60s than my 50s, and I wouldn't wish my teens and 20s on my enemies.