I don't think that I ever thought of myself as a nerd.
In college I castrated 21 rats, and I got pretty good at it.
At 45, you know what you're doing, but you're still not done.
Since I had the baby I can't tolerate anything violent or sad, I saw the Matrix and I had my eyes closed through a lot of it, though I didn't need to. I would peek, and then think, oh OK, I can see that
An actress, around 40, on television, that's where you get the most torture, I think.
You can't help but just be aware that things might not always be as good as they are, because people's feelings about others can turn on a dime.