I have never looked into my sister's eyes. I have never bathed alone. I have never stood in the grass at night and raised my arms to the beguiling moon. Iโve never used an airplane bathroom. Or worn a hat. Or been kissed like that. Iโve never driven a car. Or slept through the night. Never a private talk. Or a solo walk. Iโve never climbed a tree. Or faded into a crowd. So many things Iโve never done, but oh, how Iโve been loved. And, if such things were to be, Iโd live a thousand lives as me, to be loved so exponentially.
Lori LansensI was in the emergency room twice with heart palpitations and panic attacks. As one of my actor friends pointed out: your body doesn't know that you're making art. You think about struggle and challenge and you imagine yourself weighing 302 pounds and being restricted and in despair. Your body doesn't know that that's not the case.
Lori LansensI hum some secret place into being, thinking of this other me, the one that only I can see, a girl called She, who is not We, a girl who I will never be.
Lori Lansens