All narratives, even the confusing, are implicitly hopeful; they speak of a world that can be ordered, and thus understood.

I used to think truth was eternal, that once I knew, once I saw, it would be with me forever, a constant by which everything else could be measured. I know now that this isn’t so, that most truths are inherently unretainable, that we have to work hard all our lives to remember the most basic things.

All narratives, even the confusing, are implicitly hopeful; they speak of a world that can be ordered, and thus understood.

Partly I was honing my self-consciousness into a torture device, sharp and efficient enough to last me the rest of my life.

When I tried to imagine being beautiful, I could only imagine living without the perpetual fear of being alone, without the great burden of isolation, which is what feeling ugly felt like.

Through [my friends] I discovered what it was to love people. There was an art to it...which was not really all that different from the love that is necessary in the making of art. It required the effort of always seeing them for themselves and not as I wished them to be.

Sometimes the briefest moments capture us, force us to take them in, and demand that we live the rest of our lives in reference to them.