Acting in anger and hatred throughout my life, I frequently precipitated what I feared most, the loss of friendships and the need to rely upon the very people I'd abused.

I've often thought that my lack of intimacy with those around me is the fault of those around me.

I now attend non-orthodox synagogues, and study little during the secular week.

I'm not jumping into anything fast. I'm an actor that likes to choose my work and there's an element of good taste to my work.

I decided to take God and organized religion seriously, and to reject the secular life which in my teens had looked attractive because it allowed me to act in any way that I wanted.

I learned from my Adventist upbringing that the biggest sins were sexual.

I have decided to follow in my sinful ways, and have largely abandoned the increasingly religious life I was leading over the previous months, including several hours of Talmudic study a day.