I've often thought that my lack of intimacy with those around me is the fault of those around me.

I knew in my gut that there was something wrong with a system that couldn't fire its incompetents, and I had my share of incompetent college teachers.

I teethed on books of heroes such as Winston Churchill, Abraham Lincoln and King David.

I now attend non-orthodox synagogues, and study little during the secular week.

Acting in anger and hatred throughout my life, I frequently precipitated what I feared most, the loss of friendships and the need to rely upon the very people I'd abused.

In my right-wing politics of the time, I held that unemployment was usually the fault of the unemployed.

My habit of glorifying things far away in space and time, also contributed to my social isolation.