I'm always sure of what I do," he said. "Sometimes I was just never sure there was supposed to be a happy ending.

sloughing my skin / escaping it's grip / stripped of my wit / it hurts to be me .

I don't think I'd like to argue with you," I say. "I think it would be a very dissatisfying pastime.

Sometimes Ronan thought Adam was so used to the right way being painful that he doubted any path that didn’t come with agony.

Avoidance is a wonderful therapy

Ronan Lynch lived with every sort of secret. His first secret was himself. He was brother to a liar and brother to an angel, son of a dream and son of a dreamer. He was a warring star full of endless possibilities, but in the end, as he dreamt in the backseat on the way to the Barns that night, he created only this.

I am alone in the world, and yet not alone enough to make each hour holy. I am lowly in this world, and yet not lowly enough for me to be just a thing to you, dark and shrewd. I want my will and I want to go with my will as it moves towards action. And I want, in those silent, somehow faltering times, to be with someone who knows, or else alone. I want to reflect everything about you, and I never want to be too blind or too ancient to keep your profound wavering image with me. I want to unfold. I don't want to be folded anywhere, because there, where I'm folded, I am a lie.