Life's pain. You just have to get over as much of it as you can. -Isabel Culpeper

sloughing my skin / escaping it's grip / stripped of my wit / it hurts to be me .

Gansey studied Adam's erratic handwriting. His letters always looked like they were running from something.

i never pegged you for a fan of the obvious, sam", "i'm not, otherwise, i would've said, 'hey, shouldn't you be in school ?'", "touche

Everything mattered and nothing did, and I was tired of trying to find out how both of those things were true. I was an itch that I'd scratched so hard I was bleeding. I had set out to do the impossible, whatever the impossible might be, only to find out that it was living with myself. Suicide became an expiration date, the day after which I no longer had to try.

Strange what love taught you about your faults.

It seemed like the best weapons in my life had always been the most innocuous: empty plastic bins, a blank CD, an unmarked syringe, my smile in a dark room.