You most likely need a thesaurus, a rudimentary grammar book, and a grip on reality. This latter means: there's no free lunch. Writing is work. It's also gambling. You don't get a pension plan. Other people can help you a bit, but ยญessentially you're on your own. Nobody is making you do this: you chose it, so don't whine.
Margaret AtwoodThe true story is vicious and multiple and untrue after all. Why do you need it? Donโt ever ask for the true story.
Margaret AtwoodMy brother and I were both teenage writers, and he was, I have to say, better than I was, but he went into science, and I went into writing.
Margaret Atwood