Optimism means better than reality; pessimism means worse than reality. I'm a realist.

it's doors I'm afraid of because I can't see through them, its the door opening by itself in the wind I'm afraid of.

When we're young, we like happy endings. When we're a little older, we think happy endings are unrealistic and so we prefer bad but credible endings. When we're older still, we realize happy endings aren't so bad after all.

When they're gone out of his head, these words, they'll be gone, everywhere, forever. As if they had never been.

But my dreaming self refuses to be consoled. It continues to wander, aimless, homeless, alone. It cannot be convinced of its safety by any evidence drawn from my waking life.

I am afraid of falling into hopeless despair, over my wasted life, and I am still not sure how it happened.

What else can I do? Once you've gone this far you aren't fit for anything else. Something happens to your mind. You're overqualified, overspecialized, and everybody knows it. Nobody in any other game would be crazy enough to hire me. I wouldn't even make a good ditch-digger, I'd start tearing apart the sewer-system, trying to pick-axe and unearth all those chthonic symbols - pipes, valves, cloacal conduits... No, no. I'll have to be a slave in the paper-mines for all time.