If you die and enough people are watching, then you become a martyr, you become a hero, you become well-known.
You get depressed because you know that you're not what you should be.
Multiply your death, divide by sex, add up your violence, what do you get?
I'm not a believer of the "perfect world" TV tries to feed us.
I've been able to watch and to weather a lot of different periods in entertainment, politics and life.
It's my job to be the Pierrot, the clown, in the theatrical sense.