An idyllic childhood is probably illusion.
You can never do enough for the dead. You search around for comfort but there is no comfort; there never was and never will be. There is only a gradual wearing away of the sharp edges, so that you don't feel ambushed at every turn, as if you saw the dead suddenly rounding the corner.
I cleared my throat - it isn't frogs you get in your throat; it's memories.
Most people see what they want to, or at least what they expect to.
Before you hate something you should try to understand it.
Talking's just a nervous habit.