There are a lot of reasons to doubt things.
I wished that the chains would break and the wind would sweep me up, up, up into the sky, beyond the clouds, beyond the sun and the moon, to some marvelous kingdom where no one ever changed and friends were friends for life.
I was a coward. I'm still such a coward.
A story comes to you; it isn't like you choose it. You have no real control.
I was terrified of funerals.
I think it's dead bodies that really haunt me.