When it's over, I want to say: all my life I was a bride married to amazement. I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.

Still, what I want in my life is to be willing to be dazzled-to cast aside the weight of facts and maybe even to float a little above this difficult world. I want to believe I am looking into the white fire of a great mystery. I want to believe that the imperfections are nothing-that the light is everything-that it is more than the sum of each flawed blossom rising and fading. And I do.

It's not a competition, it's a doorway.

When it's over, I want to say: all my life I was a bride married to amazement. I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.

I feel the terror of idleness, like a red thirst. Death isn't just an idea.

One day you finally knew what you had to do, and began.

Walks work for me. I enter some arena that is neither conscious or unconscious.