I went to a rare live Van Dyke show and met him there. And then he came to a show of mine and we spoke back stage. The third time was at Brian Wilson's birthday party.

I have more perspective now, and am happier now. It's not that I don't want success, but I now know I can have success at a lower level and make much more money doing it by myself. I make $6 or $7 bucks a record vs. nothing off those other records.

The summer of 2002 at the Wilson birthday party I met Van Dyke again and I made plans to have dinner with him.

They're not your words, but you're reciting the lines.

So it helped me to just let go of all my tensions and feelings about that world and say 'OK, this is for my fans in Japan. They'll be nice and get into it and have fun.' And it was the first record I made at my home studio.

You're laughing at everything that's bringing me down.

I only felt a cold wind blow while I tried to hang on to the past.