Music is a performance and needs the audience.
I'm outside the music I've made. I have no interest in it.
Conductors don't suffer, they are part of the performance.
I am quite certain in my heart of hearts that modern music and modern art is not a conspiracy, but is a form of truth and integrity for those who practise it honestly, decently and with all their being.
Nature has different times.
Music remains the most strange of the materials because we don't understand what happens when music moves you.