boredom was born on a day of uniformity.

I may know that the world is an ugly place, I still don't want to see it.

When something is bothering me, I seek refuge. No need to travel far; a trip to the realm of literary memory will suffice. For where can one find more noble distraction, more entertaining company, more delightful enchantment than in literature?

This morning I understand what it means to die: when we disappear, it is the others who die for us, for here I am, lying on a cold pavement and it is not the dying I care about; it has no more meaning this morning that it did yesterday. But never again will I see those I love, and if that is what dying is about then it really is the tragedy they say it is.

. . . maybe that's what life's all about: there's a lof of despair, but also the odd moments of beauty, where time is no longer the same . . . [like] something suspended . . . an elsewhere . . . an always within a never. Yes, that's is, an always within a never.

We never look beyond our assumptions and what's worse, we have given up trying to meet others; we just meet ourselves.

To beauty, all is forgiven, even vulgarity. Intelligence no longer seems an adequate compensation for things.