But I ask you, those of you who are with us all day, not to stress yourselves out because of us. When you do this, it feels as if you're denying any value at all that our lives may have--and that saps the spirit we need to soldier on. The hardest ordeal for us is the idea that we are causing grief for other people. We can put up with our own hardships okay, but the thought that our lives are the source of other people's unhappiness, that's plain unbearable.
Naoki HigashidaWe get swallowed up by the illusion that unless we can find a place to belong, we are going to be all alone in the world.
Naoki HigashidaThe thought that our lives are the source of other people's unhappiness, that's plain unbearable.
Naoki HigashidaBut when Iโm jumping, itโs as if my feelings are going upward to the sky. Really, my urge to be swallowed up by the sky is enough to make my heart quiver. When Iโm jumping, I can feel my body parts really well, tooโmy bounding legs and my clapping handsโand that makes me feel so, so good.
Naoki HigashidaJust by looking at nature, I feel as if I'm being swallowed up into it, and in that moment I get the sensation that my body's now a speck, a speck from long before I was born, a speck that is melting into nature herself.
Naoki HigashidaPeople with autism never, ever feel at ease, wherever we are. Because of this, we wander off - or run away - in search of some location where we do feel at ease. While we're on this search, it doesn't occur to us to consider how or where we're going to end up. We get swallowed up by the illusion that unless we can find a place to belong, we are going to be all alone in the world.
Naoki Higashida