Whatever it is you're scared of doing, Do it.
Can't make an omelette without killing a few people.
I like airplanes. I like anywhere that isn't a proper place. I like in betweens.
If you want to call it that. But it is a very specific sort of magic. There's a magic you take from death. Something leaves the world, something else comes into it.
My ideal reader is me. And yes, my ideal reader comes with me and is forgiving.
You don't get explanations in real life. You just get moments that are absolutely, utterly, inexplicably odd.