I remain the optimist: you just do your best and hope for the best. But it's an evolving state of mind.
Neil PeartHoward Roark stood as a role model for me - as exactly the way I already was living. Even at that tender age [18] I already felt that. And it was intuitive or instinctive or inbred stubbornness or whatever; but I had already made those choices and suffered for them.
Neil Peart