Friend, you're HOPELESSLY hooked!
Music is my higher power
I contend that most emotional distress is best understood as a rational response to sick societies.
Do your own thing on your own terms and get what you came here for.
I would guess that the typical profile of a 'follower' is someone who is young and who feels marginalised, empty and pointless. They don't have an inner life.
Backing down can become a way of life.