I kind of like the position of being the fair-haired savior of my mother

I never did quite fit the glamour mode. It is life with my husband and family that is my high now.

The panic attacks - I still have them. They started when I was around 8. They always have to do with my death

For the first time, I lived alone... in a luxury apartment on Sunset Strip. For a few days I loved the idea, but I got lonely and restless.

I can't even remember how many times I tried to kill myself

I still have highs and lows, just like any other person. What's missing is the lack of control over the super highs, which became destructive, and the super lows, which are immediately destructive.

All I will tell you is that I play a small role in someone's happily ever after.