I take responsibility for myself and what I do now.

The drink? Yes, I've had tough times in my life, especially the last year, regarding my ex-wife, my kids, I nearly broke my neck, I was on death row with pneumonia.

But if I wasn't playing, I would drink Saturdays, then Sunday, then Monday. Then I would try and train and it was no good, then have another drink just to pass the day away.

It was a big relief off my shoulder.

Daft as a brush? I'm daft, but I'm not daft as a brush!

I won player of the year and players' player, two cups and two championship medals, had a great time.

If I want to be a better person for whoever is in my life, I have to learn.