I was in such a state of mental shock and quickly spiraled into a depression at the multitude of loss. My husband, I thought, was going to leave me. I was cut off from this mentor and someone I cared for very much, David Petraeus, who also did nothing to stand up for me and in fact, empowered his surrogates to throw me under the bus, and that was devastating.

I've moved on with my life and I'm trying to find a path to re-establish my career.

I had been sort of a rising star - an athlete, a scholar, a leader. My dream was to become a high-level national security adviser.

It really felt like a tidal wave of bias washed over our country and we're still soaked in it.

I was encouraged, though, because I saw feminist writers - male and female - calling out the bias. I feel like more and more writers are cognizant of the problems and are willing to try to challenge them.

We had to communicate through our lawyers a couple of times over the years, and [David Petraeus] told me that people have been like, "Good job, Dave." Congratulating him. That's the double standard. I've concluded that sharing it won't change anything.

I had been working on a second book with [David] Petraeus called Relentless. Obviously that book and the income that it would have generated went away.