I say you have to remember in darkness what he told you in light. And the principle is this that there are times that it does feel like God is playing hide and go seek. But I trust him.

I was in school at the time, but at this time I'm in college. I'm holding up this bible and I say, God, who are you?And so I do nothing for the next two years of my life, virtually, but stay in the word of God and find out what is the answers to life.

I talk about things like how to lose without losing identity. All loss and grief feels like when you transition.

We had a church together. We co-founded and co-pastored the ministry, but Randy [White] was really a strong part.

When you find your authentic self, your identity - your true identity - how many people work a job they hate or live a life, they're going oh my gosh.

[Randy white] was such a huge part of my foundation and who I would become in God - from covering me - when you talked about being sexually abused and not having value for yourself - God so used Randy to cover me with unconditional love. And he saw something in me that I couldn't see in myself.

To say you're going to wiggle your nose and that is going to happen, it won't happen. If you look at major companies who are doing wonderful things, wonderful things and they give their portfolio billions of dollars that they make and they give away $10 million or so, when you start putting the percentages there, what we are doing is significant.