I often feel like I want to think something but I can't find the language that coincides with the thoughts, so it remains felt, not thought. Sometimes I feel like I'm thinking in Swedish without knowing Swedish.
Peter CameronNew York is strange in the summer. Life goes on as usual but itโs not, itโs like everyone is just pretending, as if everyone has been cast as the star in a movie about their life, so theyโre one step removed from it. And then in September it all gets normal again.
Peter CameronSometimes I envy religious people for the comfort of believing. It would make everything so much easier.
Peter CameronInteracting with other people does not come naturally to me; it is a strain and requires effort, and since it does not come naturally I feel like I am not really myself when I make that effort. I feel fairly comfortable with my family, but even with them I sometimes feel the strain of not being alone.
Peter CameronI always looked forward to being an adult, because I thought the adult world was, wellโadult. That adults werenโt cliquey or nasty, that the whole notion of being cool, or in, or popular would case to be the arbiter of all things social, but I was beginning to realize that the adult world was as nonsensically brutal and socially perilous as the kingdom of childhood.
Peter Cameron