The first night Stephen and I slept together, he whispered numbers into my ear: long, high numbers -- distances between planets, seconds in a life. He spoke as if they were poetry, and they became poetry. Later, when he fell asleep, I leaned over him and watched, trying to picture a mathematician's dreams. I concluded that Stephen must dream in abstract, cool designs like Mondrian paintings.
Peter CameronI think thatโs what scares me: the randomness of everything. That the people who could be important to you might just pass you by. Or you pass them by.
Peter CameronIt wouldn't kill you to get me an iced coffee." "No, but not getting killed doing something is not a very compelling reason to do it.
Peter CameronI hate stand-up comics; I think funny is something you are, not something you desperately try to be in front of a roomful of obnoxious people.
Peter CameronI thought the best thing to do would be nothing, and in that way things couldnโt get any worse.
Peter CameronIโm not a sociopath or a freak (although I donโt suppose people who are sociopaths or freaks self-identify as such); I just donโt enjoy being with people. People, at least in my experience, rarely say anything interesting to each other. They always talk about their lives and they donโt have very interesting lives. So I get impatient. For some reason I think you should only say something if itโs interesting or absolutely has to be said.
Peter Cameron