At times he could be very critical. He didn't like prints on me. He didn't like stripes. He didn't like boldness. He said I was petite and that was taking away from my looks.

No one has really heard my side of the story, the adventure we had together, the transformation that I had going from a schoolgirl to a woman overnight.

He would use amphetamines to stay awake because he would have late night maneuvers that would go way into the early morning hours and he was given pills to stay up for the long hours.

When you live life and you are living the experience, you tend not to appreciate them as you are living them. It's only when you look back and realize how special they were.

I lived a really wonderful life with this man and even after our divorce, it was incredible.

It was more that his career was going down again and he was tired of the songs. He was tired of the routine. And there was a point where he just kind of gave up. He couldn't face being 40. And he resorted to stimulants. There's a dark side there, a really dark side.

You know, I had my mother and my father convincing me that he would be going back to Hollywood and he'd be back with the actresses and dating them and that he wasn't serious about me at all. So I had him saying one thing to me and my parents telling me something else.